Growth Spurts

Both Lex & Lola are going through growth spurts. How do I know? They’ve both been asleep for the past 4 hours now. FOUR HOURS!!!!!!!!! Good Lord. At least I got a lot done.

I Hate Sand….

But I loved the beach we went to!!! Kevin and I have been looking for one beach that we can go to every year with the kids and we finally found it. It was beautiful!!! It’s only 45 minutes from our house, it’s clean, has plenty of parking, but it’s not too big, mostly families, has a cafe that serves all kinds of food, showers, dressing rooms, bathrooms and best of all………..no collage students who run around like kids swearing and throwing balls. UGH! I can’t stand that!! We had to drive to Newport, RI but it was totally worth it. The town is beautiful, with lots of little shops, tons of things to do and the people are super nice. When we first got there the parking lot was full but the parking attendant told us to park on the grass cause even if we did get a ticket, the ticket is only $25 and it cost $20 to park. HAH!! Kevin dropped us off, parked the car and hurried back as fast as he could because Lex was about to burst at the seams when he realized where we were. He could not control himself! Too cute. He could not get his swimmers on quick enough!. He absolutely loved it, until something touched him in the water. He freaked out! Made Kevin hold him all the way back to the shore. LOL!! Raven made friends with a group of girls almost as soon as we got there, of course, and Lola and I just walked around looking at all the people. She loves being outside.   Unfortunately, I forgot my bag at home. It had my new bikini in it!!!! I was furious with myself. I’m in charge of packing and getting everything in the car, so it was all my fault. I didn’t forget anyone else’s things though. -_- Oh well. I had a white tank top on and my white skirt, which is nice and cool, so I didn’t suffer and I still got a nice tan. :D We stopped and ate on the way home so we could shower and go straight to bed when we got home. Which we did. I slept like a rock! Lex slept with us, which is strange because he never does that. He was all about cuddling last night though!! Very sweet.

Not much going on today. I’m taking Raven more school shopping later. We went to a Super Walmart, which is 6 miles from our house (more on that later), for her supplies. Now she needs clothes. Ugh. -_- I hate shopping.

Seriously?

:: WHAT STARS HAVE NAMED THEIR KIDS ::

There are some seriously fucked up names on that list. Those poor kids.

Fearless!

See what I’m talking about? He loves to climb as high as he can and hates it when we try to help him. o_O Seriously…..he’s going to give us a heart attack!

The Guilt Is Going To KILL Me!!!!

I don’t feel like retyping all this, so I’m just pasting it from JM.

I was so exhausted last night that I don’t remember anything. Nothing at all!! Apparently I let Lola cry and Lex cry when they woke up. Kevin got up and took care of Lex because I was in a coma but he thought Lola was ok because I DID go down to check on her ( I don’t remember that at all! ).  Lex fell asleep eating dinner last night so we just put him to bed, so he woke up kinda freaked out because the last thing he remembers is eating dinner and then he wakes up in bed. I bet that scared him. Kevin said he got up, gave him water, changed him and put him back to bed because I was NOT waking up. Snoring and everything. Then at 3:30 I jerked awake, looked at the monitor and freaked out because it was OFF!!! I HAD TURNED IT OFF WHEN SHE STARTED CRYING!!!! I was just chatting with Kevin on iChat and he said that I went downstairs! WTF?!  I don’t remember any of that! Ugh! The guilt is killing me. When I went down at 3:30 her covers were off and she looked like she had been crying, her eyes were all red.      I started crying, grabbed her and kept apologizing. When I laid her on the changing table she looked at me and started smiling real big, and that made my heart sing.   I still didn’t feel any better though and the guilt is still killing me. I haven’t put her down all morning.  

I was so exhausted from being up with her the other night when she had gas and then not getting a nap all day and then being at the park for hours!! I guess that’ll do it.

We went to the park yesterday and we were there for hours, so I was just adding to the exhaustion I already felt. -_- I have to nap if I’m up with Lola at night. I HAVE to!!!!!! My babies depend on me and I need to be 150% there for them at all times.

Dead Tired -_-

We just got home from the park and I am dead tired. We’re about to sit down to eat, I’m just waiting on the bread to finish. I told Kevin that I think Lex is going to give us a heart attack someday. The boy is fearless. It’s really scary, actually. O_O I have some pictures of him from today that I’ll post later tonight or tomorrow. You’ll see what I mean………fearless.

My Husband & Daughter….

Are both great photographers. These are the pictures my husband took today while shooting a scene for his friend’s movie…..

 

Aren’t those great?! And he took them with his camera phone! O_O

Ok….here are the pictures Raven took while me and the kids were napping…..

Not bad, huh?

What My Kids Have Taught Me

I was thinking about my kids yesterday and what each of them has taught me. I’ll start with Raven….

Raven::

When I found out I was pregnant with Raven I was so excited, but very scared because I knew I would be a single parent. I didn’t mind that at all, I was just happy. When she was born I literally felt my life change. From that moment on I knew that it wasn’t about me anymore…….it was all about Raven. She taught me to give instead of take. Ihad never loved anyone more than Ioved myself. It was beautiful.

LEX::

When Kevin told me that he wanted to start trying to have a baby, I was a little scared. It had been, after all, been 9 years since I was pregnant and I was nervous. But once I had the IUD removed, everything changed. I wanted to be pregnant SO badly!! I was obsessed with all things pregnant. LOL!! When we found out we were pregnant, I was more than thrilled……..I was on cloud 9. I was so happy to be pregnant. The pregnancy was perfect, morning sickness and all. It went by too fast. The moment Lex was born the clouds opened up and Angels sang (lol!)…….it was beautiful. In the few days that followed Lex taught me that it is possible to love more and more. And patience……..he taught me patience. That was something I thought I had lost.

LOLA::

She has obviously taught me that yes….it is possible to have enough energy for 3 kids. LOL!!! No, but seriously. When I was in the middle of pushing her out, I thought to myself……..”Lolita, please…..you’re killing Mommy. All I want is to hold you in my arms. It’s time to come out now.” Two seconds later she was out. In that moment I looked at her and fell in love again. I couldn’t hold her right away because of the meconium in my water, they had to clear her lungs first, so I watched from afar. I couldn’t get my hands on her fast enough. I actually said to the nurse….”Please bring me my daughter….NOW. Don’t make me get up.” They brought her right over. I held her in my arms and just stared at her and she stared right back. She never once cried. I have to admit that I was a little scared. I mean, here I was with baby #3 and  2 year old and a 12 year old at home. How on Earth was I going to manage?! Once we got home things were a lot easier than I thought. How is that possible? Well, Lola taught me the most important thing of all……….strength. Lola showed me just how strong I was. I knew I had strength, but I never knew just how strong I was until I had her. It was completely amazing. ♥

As Promised……

Here I am. The kids are napping, so I have a little bit. Things are going well. I fond myself just coasting through the day on empty, barely aware of what’s going on. LOL!! I’m sleeping well, it’s just that Lex is so energetic I barely have time to sit down. Throw in breastfeeding, changing more diapers and things can get tiring. We got really lucky with Lolita. The kid loves to sleep and is content just to sit and watch what’s going on around her. I don’t know what I’d do with a needy child.

Lex has gotten soooo much better with her. He loves on her, helps change her diaper, talks to her and doesn’t really bother her anymore. I was scared there for a while. I knew he’d come around. Last night he sat by her bassinet and talked to her. He kept asking if she needed her “biaper” changed or if she wanted “Mama Baabaas”. That’s what he calls my boods…..mama baabaas. HAHAHAAAAA!!!!! Too cute.

Raven is home from Florida. She had a blast, of course! My sister is going to send me the pictures soon. Hopefully before Christmas. HAHAHA!!! (Just kidding, BooBoo!) When Raven came home and saw her room I thought she was going to cry. She loves it! YAY!! Kevin did such a great job on it. I’m so proud of him. Our first day without Kevin here, Raven looked at me and said….”Mom, you’re my Hero. I don’t know how you do everything that you do and NOT want to kill someone. It would be too much for me.” I said…”That’s why I’m the Mom and you’re not.” HAHAHAA!!! Of course I’m her Hero…..for NOW. We’ll see about that in 2 years or so. o_O She’s already acting like a teenager and it’s not pretty!! Makeup, boys, expensive clothes…….ugh! Can’t she be a tomboy forever?! 

I’ll leave you with some pictures……

♥

So Busy!!

I wish I had more time to update, but life with 3 kids is keeping me very busy. I’ll be back to updating regularly soon.